the upside down of mylife.

Note that today is 29th February 2012.

Its a leap year.

its been a while i know..

i feel like crying, regretting my actions.

Actions.

yes, it's plural.

i'm not happy with my assignment. I think i deserve to be punished.

I dont know why this sudden "tak puas" hati feeling keeps lingering in me. Betol la, nak jadi jahat mmg senang sgttttt~ Nak jd baik, mak aih, gile susah.

and this relates to my current perangai. how to avoid perasaan ujub? riak?

kenapa ada perasaan mcm ni?

perasan macam... 'HEY, AKU BAIK DR KAU...KAU HADOO?" like that.

which is totally wrong...

keep telling myself... NO NO. u are not perfect urself.

why i have this 'envy' feeling tgk org berubah? bila tgk org lain hebat dr beribadah... hebat dlm hubungan dgn Allah? I AM NOT THERE YET.

and that upsets me... cos im searching... and still searching. wish my path would be easy...

umm, JANNAH.

yes, i wanna be there. I wanna go there.

If i could masuk Syurga, I would like to ask Allah a friend called DORAEMON.

ok, rambling.

But seriously, im pretty stress. at this moment, little-little things upset me. Orang ckp sikit, tegur sikit, type status twitter tah pape pon boleh sentap...

heh, kau hado?

Sedih laa dgn diri sendiri. Aku bukan malaikat. tapi itu laa... Journey to meet Allah, to Jannah bukan senang.. it's berliku2 for me.

MAKE DU'A FOR ME.

moga aku sabar dan tabah....

p/s: 4 assignments in a ROW. Dead. yes. im dead.

it's a new post. short again.

insya Allah i'll be going to 'that' place in April..

insya Allah...

i make friend with Aslan. He's a nice guy Masha Allah :)

I think i'm in love with Ustaz Don...errr... The Show :)

I feel great cos I dont feel the shaitunn disturbing me.

I'm still Fighting with my OCD.

I think i wanna educate people with WHAT OCD really is..

for now. I just wanna thank Allah for the ujian and kebaikan that HE has given me, tanpa putus :) Thanks Allah...

Assalamualaikum.

kau adalah memori

he once told me...

'i couldn't find anyone like you' even if i dated 41 girls after you...'

But few days back when he mentioned about it..

You are who you are..not because of me.

Not because of the break-up.

:(

Hope you will find your way back. To the right path... insya Allah.

"we cannot be together

But we will never be apart

For no matter what life brings us

You will always be in my hear"

Dear You, please be happy...

-sha-

it's an awkward moment

oh hati,

jangan la begini...

kelak susah nanti.

urmm, old memories keep comin back at me. all at once.

shouldn't keep it lingers for long...

Should and must let it stop there.

Just there. because you will never know what the future promised you...

why can't i get rid the awkwardness?

Dear Sha, why can't you?

it's time to move on...

Ride your bicycle, and ride....ride.... till you see the tunnel

Hope you dont get lost for too long...

Dear Sha, dont get lost. At all.

ah, i love this :)

Dear sister in Islam...,
We know its hard. We know you look at the pictures of the models and the celebrities and wonder why you can’t look like them? We know it hurts to sometimes refrain yourself from plucking those brows or to put on that hijab & abaya. We know it gets hard to walk outside with no make up on, with your natural face, thinking it’s not good enough and all of your flaws are showing.

You know what else we know? We know you’re beautiful, regardless of what you think of yourself. ♥ We know that even the slightest inclination of pleasing Allah in yourself increases that beauty ten-fold and we know that when Allah finds you beautiful, it’s all that matters. You’re not doing this for the world, remember? You’re not even doing it for yourself. :)

Imagine your beauty on the Day of Qiyamah when your face would be glowing and radiant with noor, when you would enter Jannaj & be more beautiful than the hoor and you would realize that it was this world really wasn’t worth the drool.

Lovely sister, we are proud of you! ♥

-taken from, ILOVE ALLAH.COM =)

hehehe i learn to make a video

xx

hati berdarah.

kau apa tahu...