one moment please

it's a new post. short again.

2012-01-31T13:36:00.000-08:00

insya Allah i'll be going to 'that' place in April..

insya Allah...

i make friend with Aslan. He's a nice guy Masha Allah :)

I think i'm in love with Ustaz Don...errr... The Show :)

I feel great cos I dont feel the shaitunn disturbing me.

I'm still Fighting with my OCD.

I think i wanna educate people with WHAT OCD really is..

for now. I just wanna thank Allah for the ujian and kebaikan that HE has given me, tanpa putus :) Thanks Allah...

Assalamualaikum.

kau adalah memori

2011-12-08T02:22:00.000-08:00

he once told me...

'i couldn't find anyone like you' even if i dated 41 girls after you...'

But few days back when he mentioned about it..

You are who you are..not because of me.

Not because of the break-up.

Hope you will find your way back. To the right path... insya Allah.

"we cannot be together

But we will never be apart

For no matter what life brings us

You will always be in my hear"

Dear You, please be happy...

-sha-

it's an awkward moment

2011-12-01T13:35:00.000-08:00

oh hati,

jangan la begini...

kelak susah nanti.

urmm, old memories keep comin back at me. all at once.

shouldn't keep it lingers for long...

Should and must let it stop there.

Just there. because you will never know what the future promised you...

why can't i get rid the awkwardness?

Dear Sha, why can't you?

it's time to move on...

Ride your bicycle, and ride....ride.... till you see the tunnel

Hope you dont get lost for too long...

Dear Sha, dont get lost. At all.

ah, i love this :)

2011-11-23T05:26:00.000-08:00

Dear sister in Islam...,
We know its hard. We know you look at the pictures of the models and the celebrities and wonder why you can’t look like them? We know it hurts to sometimes refrain yourself from plucking those brows or to put on that hijab & abaya. We know it gets hard to walk outside with no make up on, with your natural face, thinking it’s not good enough and all of your flaws are showing.

You know what else we know? We know you’re beautiful, regardless of what you think of yourself. ♥ We know that even the slightest inclination of pleasing Allah in yourself increases that beauty ten-fold and we know that when Allah finds you beautiful, it’s all that matters. You’re not doing this for the world, remember? You’re not even doing it for yourself. :)

Imagine your beauty on the Day of Qiyamah when your face would be glowing and radiant with noor, when you would enter Jannaj & be more beautiful than the hoor and you would realize that it was this world really wasn’t worth the drool.

Lovely sister, we are proud of you! ♥

-taken from, ILOVE ALLAH.COM =)

hehehe i learn to make a video

2011-11-03T04:43:00.000-07:00

xx

2011-11-02T17:27:00.001-07:00

hati berdarah.

kau apa tahu...

jatuh bangun

2011-10-29T02:39:00.001-07:00

kecundang juga arnab masuk ke dalam mulut buaya....

muaahaha...

Life sucks.

Never trust your heart.

But trust your mind..

bye~

happy weekend!

homaigod~

2011-10-19T09:16:00.000-07:00

suka BIEBER!!!!

THE SONG MISTLETOE!!!

kalau chenta katakan chenta.

2011-10-19T03:52:00.000-07:00

today is my mom's birthday...

She's turning 61 today.. Alhamdulillah =)

she's still the prettiest woman i've ever known xx

Love you so much!!

p/s: Bieber suda ada itu video baru.., eyh nice laa..

pecah da pon suara die :P

survey!

2011-10-17T15:44:00.000-07:00

what if i turn this Blog into picture post-blog?

i love em~

i am photography freak...

now i feel like buying a new lens for my camera but its freaking expensive.

Dude.

I have paid nearly 2200 pound for the accommodation.

but i have a big lust. i am greedy too...

so pls get me one new nikon 50mm 1.8g lens..

i love u~

3 blogs i love to write.

2011-10-13T03:13:00.001-07:00

i have 3 blogs now...

sigh sigh.

Eid fitri

2011-08-30T04:05:00.000-07:00

a story of a boy...

named Ikmal...

sigh.

HE really touches my heart...

10 years old, but know the real meaning of life.

may allah blesses his soul

p/s: pls pegi sekolaaa! jangan ponteng..malas2 daa.. ok dik?

selamat hari rayaaa semuaaa!

I am Back.

2011-08-28T08:54:00.001-07:00

hi peeps.

yeah, its the boring me again.. how time flies so fast I couldnt barely remember when was the last time i wrote something on my blogspot. its 29 Ramadhan, the last day of fasting for many muslims around the world. i MIGHT say i am not an achiever this year. there are many things i wish i didnt do.. and there are many things i hope i would do, from the beginning.

i am 22 this year. its freaking 22 that got me thinking about life.

i wake up every morning, or afternoon, or late evening somtimes.. thinking where faith and life are heading me towards...i am not that kind of person who is easily satisfied with life. there are many things i think i regret...

without doubt, falling in love with many BOYS (none of them are manly enough, such soft cocks the exs, coward. ) was the biggest mistake ever. not that i regret my present, but living in present day.. but haunted with ur past memories sometimes is killing me. it hurts me enough to think how naive and shallow minded i was... but my present life is okay i guess. Hanif is a good guy for me. I love him so much. He was my best friend 4 years ago and today, he is still my bff ... there are many things i've shared with him... many that i didnt dare to share with my other friends... is he the one? well, i could not put a knot to that just yet... it's too early to talk about it.. because i am afraid of what life will offer me in the future.

Recently, somebody i know told somebody i know too bout her not being happy married. my heart ache everytime i think of her. i feel bad for her because i love her too much... Marriage life is a gamble. I have friends, bestfriends who got married at the early age but its too soon to judge how far it goes... and yes, my bFF is getting married on the 3rd day of Raya.. I'll be there for her on her big day. i Promised her already...i dont know m i still alive tomorrow, next year.. (it makes me pee thinking about the rumours, that the world will end 2012..well, lets hope that the Mayan Calendar is wrong) sigh.

I know i talk craps now... i dont care..

i am not expecting people to read it either...

I am just terribly empty.

like a cookie jar.

__________________________.

lots of love,

sha.

all i want now is- balik malaysia!

2011-06-02T14:00:00.000-07:00

i am freakin homesick!

eh?!

strong.

2011-05-23T06:17:00.000-07:00

demi Allah,

aku masih mencari kekuatan itu.

Demi Allah,

aku sedang berusaha meraih syurga-Mu..

Demi Allah,

TABAH kan hati ku...

hanif.

2011-05-15T08:04:00.000-07:00

im waiting for you...

love u soo~

monday.

2011-05-09T05:19:00.000-07:00

mengeluh, tapi jarang bersyukur ;o

Tunggu Sekejap..hujan

2011-05-07T15:03:00.000-07:00

Tunggu sekejap wahai kasih,

Kerana hijan masih renyai,

Tunggu sekejap,

Dalam perlukan asramaku.

Jangan bimbang,
Walaupun siang akan menjelma,
Malam ini,
Belum puas ku bercumbu dengan dinda.

Tunggu sekejap wahai kasih,
Tunggulah sampai hujan teduh,
Mari ku dendang,
Jangan mengenang orang jauh,
Jangan pula,
Jangan tinggalkan daku seorang,
Tunggu sekejap kasih,
Tunggu…

P.RAmlee song. Sang by Hujan.

i am revising my DEU.

hehe.. it's raining outside...

it feels like home.. Malaysia bila hujan sejuk dan nyaman..

tak gitu?

and with Maddi Jane's voice on Youtube..

*Jar of Hearts* mood..

Soothing.

**who do you think you are, running round living scars?**

Lyric-wise... menusuk jantong kalbu.

haha, it's obvious we are trying to live in the present and try to runaway from our past...

cos, mistakes are normal.

but if i were to think about my past, i am going to say, i regret most of it...

oh, shit. stop it before i welled my eyes =D

xx.

marks.

2011-05-06T11:03:00.000-07:00

Dear God,

I wanna be a bright student like Charlene and Shoba!

ngeee~

down with my assignments.

well, brain.

you are not useless. but me.

xx.

confession time.

2011-05-04T04:57:00.000-07:00

i know perancangan Allah tu lebih hebat dar perancangan Manusia...

sebolehnye, aku mao berjaya dunia dan akhirat.

masih banyak yang aku perlu belajar..

aku tahu...

hidup aku terumbang ambing je..

ada masa aku lupe diri..

ada masa aku rase proud..

aku tak lari dari dosa.

sebab aku manusia saja...

bukan maksum seperti Nabi Muhammad...

if people ask me, what i want now in life...

i would say "a husband".

yes. u heard me..

because i need someone to stay strong with me...

lagi seronok kan, berhubungan dgn seorang lelaki yang muhrim..

yang bila kau bersentuhan tangan dgn nya..

kau pandang wajah nye dgn kasih sayang...

Rahmat Allah turun serta merta buat kau..

pahala yang kau dapat..

tapi bukan kah lelaki yg baik untuk perempuan yg baik?

aku bukan baik... aku x rasa diri aku baik..

aku budak hingusan yang biasa..

yang jatuh bangun dlm dunia yg sementara...

aku doa banyak2...

jodoh aku cepat sampai...

moga orang itu, dapat menyayangi aku, dan family aku juga...

yang cintakan Allah dan sanggup

menjaga aku... sampai syurga.

i know im asking too much..

but tak salah sandarkan sedikit harapan pada-NYA..

amin...

and i miss you.

2011-05-04T04:48:00.000-07:00

i wish you all the happiness in the world.

i love you though i never confess.

i genuinely love you.

and i hope everything is well.

may god bless you here and after.

*kiss*

T_______T

2011-02-26T13:48:00.000-08:00

kalau kau xnak serius, cakap saja.. ok?

i will marry you, insya Allah... =)

2011-02-13T08:52:00.000-08:00

he said, 'I will Marry you 2 years after the proposal'.

But when mr A?

hahaha...

if you propose me this 16 February...

i'll be married at the age of 24.

But i dont think so lah!

26 kan? kan? ggr..........

sigh.

cis. ada hati mao kawen kau sha! Esaimen DEU pon x buat lagi.

gatal!

duhhh... bermula laa reading week kita ye semua!!

selamatttttt~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ xx

p/s: perlukan motivasi. mari laa sama-sama menasihati! =)

*oh anyway, semalam demam panas.. but now ok da.. just selsema + batuk2.. heee! cio bello!

gggrrr...

2011-02-09T00:10:00.001-08:00

rasa terhegeh-hegeh.

bodoh la kau!

new lilit untuk budak kaca mata.

2011-02-08T14:28:00.000-08:00

Hi!

minggu depan akan menginjak ke usia 22.

wow. 22.

syukur masih d beri peluang untuk bernafas.

sile fokus ke gambar di atas.

muka sangat matang. gagaga.

finally baru pandai pakai shawl with ur glasses on.

whee~

syok2.

obvious reason im writing is.....tettt~

contact ngan my long lost x.

ngeng.

he's doing great i guess. =)

but truth is,

I'm glad our relationship stopped many many years ago.

I'm glad we just stick as friends now.

I'm just glad the way life is treating me now.

I think, God is gracious.

For giving me Anep instead of him.

or not other boys that I've met in my life.

quoting my Fb status:

'Ada sebab Allah Tak jodoh kn kmu dgn org yg kmu suke..or penah suke, (sha Mooshux,2011)

well, itulah kan...

Jodoh, Pertemuan dan Ajal tu kan di tangan Allah.

kalau korang jumpa orang yang salah...

jangan cepat give up.

because mungkin orang yg korang jumpe tu mcm ujian...

untuk korang blaja about life.

life is beautiful and full of surprises, innit?

^,^

tade duet.

2011-01-31T13:06:00.001-08:00

krisis.

tapi rezeki masih murah..

hehehe.

i leave you with this! :)

2011-01-25T10:21:00.001-08:00

cheers!

entry bosan dan pndek.

2011-01-23T14:01:00.001-08:00

dapat mkn kebab.

maceh wak~

hanif asyraf, thanks.

2011-01-22T03:47:00.000-08:00

last night was full with tears and heart Ache.

but im glad we talked about it at last.

kadang2 apa yang kita suka tu tak bermakna Allah pon suka...

Maybe ada hikmah die.

Hanif dear, i need u to be strong.

i know its hard for you, it's hard for me too...

but please stay strong cos i need you.

just you.

i promise i'll make you the happiest man...

we've been through the hard times,

we've laughed, cried and shared things together...

4 years is nothing short baby,

even me and my ex pon x lama...

me sayang kamu...

sebab u love me, pamper me.. listen to me.

i know sometimes our relationship a bit shaky, and im sorry for whining and complaining,

im not perfect, but i will always try.

listen b,

i'll keep ur heart that u gave me last time..

i will cherish it...

promise that oneday things gonna be fine.

you are such a great guy. you are gentleman, u never force, u stay by my side.

however, u are such a busy guy too, but after last night, i came to realize the fact that i

couldn't always be attached to you, hurts. but its okay b..

cos me da makin paham.

be mine forever dear.

xx.

perception

2011-01-21T15:52:00.000-08:00

i think God has given justice to someone that we used to make fun of...

god is great,

forgive me sister.

next time xnak buat dah :)

short course- Al-Quran.

2011-01-19T05:20:00.000-08:00

learning Al-Quran -easy way =)

click on the link above...

=) cheers!

summer d UK.

2011-01-16T15:03:00.000-08:00

ok, tajuk serius.

pasal aku plan tanak balik.

al-kisahnye sebab taun depan aku mmg da nak balik for good..

insya Allah kalo panjang umo..

masalahnye, rata2 rakan perempuan mao pulang..

mungkin saya je tak rendu mak saya. heh. rendu rendu...

cuma saya nak merasa idup d rantauan.

tapi saya jujur sgt pemalas orgnye..

die cakap, kalo nk idop dgn gumbira d neara org, rajin2 laa berkerja..

kawan saya cube apply keje subway. munyik best.. tapi saya still malas, tanpa usaha dan hidayah..

saya cuak dan gementar.. pasal saya kalau benda2 bntuk interview, diskusi, atau pon sesi brainstorm.. agak lemah..saya punye otak tak mmpu nak susun ayat dgn logik.

penyakit ka?

ish.. betol ni..

itu laa salah satu sebab juga saya tak apply keje steward dekat art center...

saya ada darah gemuruh.

saya takot nak buat silap.

silap bnda lain xpe pulak.

astaga!!!

so, sape yang tak balik summer ni?

ada website apa2 ke yg boleh d rujuk kalau nak cri keje yang halal?

uhuuu~ kalau semua balik, saya tak tau saya gagah ke tidak nak duk sini sorang2

saya tak rapat gile2 ngn post grad..

lonely pule.

awal betoi saya tanya orang soalan ni...

pasal rakan2 saya yg berkobar2 tanak balik 2nd year...

suda mule mmbeli, mencari tiket murah ke Malaysia...

tinggal laa saya...

housemate saya juga mcm da hampir kompem mao pulang...

titik.

pretending to make a happy face.

2011-01-13T15:07:00.000-08:00

hoi hoi..

perempuan tak perlu cakap kalo die nak attention...

adoyai. suda lama chenta chentun x paham juge...

sigh.

santapan rohani.

2011-01-11T17:36:00.000-08:00

"Wahai anak muda, berkahwinlah. Sesiapa yang mampu, berkahwinlah kerana ia lebih memelihara mata dan menjaga faraj. Sesiapa yang tidak mampu untuk berkahwin hendaklah dia berpuasa kerana puasa adalah penahan (daripada gelojak nafsu)" (Hadith Rasulullah SAW yang diriwayatkan oleh Imam Al-Bukhari).

^,^

oh hiba.

2011-01-10T13:11:00.001-08:00

saya rendu awak, fana musa. =(

dengar lagu HUJAN, (Time tuh sumpah hujan x femes pon)

tingat awak waktu kite kt matriks.

rendu lah.

esok saya nak jumpe mereke2 ni!

2011-01-09T12:35:00.001-08:00

rakan2 coursemate yg suda berhempas pulas hmpir 4 taon! gigih betol!

mao bergile2 kembali setelah membuang masa di gua masing2 cuti winter.

cos kami mmg

hyper :)

jumpe abang macho yang suke buat suara besar. tapi suara beliau kecik mcm kucim je.

eyh, da nk 4 taon lah kite kenal!

selamat buat assignment CLIL + psychology (esp, dell, anep, intan, farahsukeijo etc)

selamat kembali ke sekolah!!!

haha. selamat!

kadang2 aku lupe.

2011-01-08T15:41:00.000-08:00

hye pees.

im back again.. seriously... cuti da nak abes. and i wish cuti ada lagi.

arini homesick gile2.

tibe2 mcm mao pulang.

emm...

i hope one day die berubah. *i know he's trying.*

i hope one day die sedar.

because i care about him.

for heaven sake.

p/s: entry pendek2. tiada emosi mao menulis. tiada cerita nk bercerita.

saya syang mama saya.

2011-01-03T16:24:00.001-08:00

saya mao kawen.

huhu..

a picture. ;)

2011-01-02T04:54:00.001-08:00

i love bb,

nnti kite jalan2 agy yep!

2011-01-01T15:38:00.001-08:00

smlm mimpi ajad. pe kah?

hahaha.

sister.

2011-01-01T08:33:00.000-08:00

i think she's happy with her life now.

who am i to be jealous and sad over her happiness?

but God, i can't help me.

perhaps i just miss her.

she's the only sister i have.

now, she's living with her new family, oh,

real family actually, which automatically makes us as a secondary family.

i don't know.

i once asked anep,

"am i wrong to get jealous?"

but he seemed didnt understand how i feel.

seeing their family now..

i think she completes them.

their lost and missing child has returned to them.

but then, how hard it takes,

she is their flesh and blood.

the bond would never die.

and oneday if she were to get married,

pakcik halim is still going to be her 'wali',

not papa.

i know she's so different from us

in terms of attitude,

but i love her anyway,

never less, assuming she's the only one i have now..

if kak ngah was still alive, i'm going to have two sisters...

and now 1 has gone... and i Dont wanna lose another one.

it seems hard for me to mend this broken heart.

i wish i could be there, right now...

share all the happiness that one could give to my sister.

but then, she deserves to be there.. with her family.

we actually have her for almost 24 years now..

i don't know what would her parents think, how they feel for 24 years..

it must be hard. but she has given the joy and fun in my family.

she gives me a title of being 'adik' and she, as kak chik.

i wish you all the happiness sis.

i love you.

and miss you.

always yours,

adik.

hi malaysia

2010-10-24T10:34:00.000-07:00

i'm alive :)

kau ada keluarga?

2010-09-26T07:50:00.000-07:00

kalo ko ada masalah ngn ma... bgtau lah die. aku sape lah ngn cakap ngn die...

aku tak sampai hati... tak tergamak nk cakap bnda yg ko baru je bgtau aku td. tolong la. hati aku mcm hancur je td. aku tau ko pon hancur lencur da lama.. tapi ko sbgai yg tua, patut lagi tau nk deal dgn parents. cos u r a parent urself. . . da lama aku nk cakap ni..

aku da tawar hati ngn kau. tapi tgk ko da start baik2 ngn aku.. aku rasa bahagia sgt. kalau lah aku dpt rasa semua ni dr dulu lagi. tapi rasa tuh kejap je.. cos logiknya aku x rasa prasaan tuh ikhlas. tah la. kalau aku buat dosa ngn ko, aku mintak maaf. aku taknak mati nnti kau berdendam dgn aku. aku nk idup tenang... =(

ye. msg ko buat aku menangis... d malam terakhir aku kat Malaysia.

raya is almost over.

2010-09-17T11:31:00.000-07:00

i have had the busiest Hari Raya ever.

full with colours.

laughters.

and Joy!

Won't get the same experience next year. probably will be spending Raya in UK.

experimenting with the weather perhaps =)

.

2010-09-06T11:24:00.000-07:00

i love u, you idiot!

rambling. merdeka~ merdeka!

2010-08-30T06:28:00.000-07:00

aku tak suke bile ta sedap hati...

mula laa terlintas bnda yg bukan2..

hati aku rapuh sgt agaknye.

sng nk kne dgn bisikan syaitan..

heh. tapi syaitan kene ikat time2 pose.

any solution kepasda ati? maybe the best way is to ignore.

tapi kena ada pendinding juga which is zikir.

eyh betol kan apa aku ckp ni...

huhu...

anyway, da masuk da 10 mlm terakhir Ramadan.

aku tak rasa aku punye amalan upgrade.

aku usaha. inSya Allah...

sapa yg suke d takuk lama kan?

selama ni pon hidup aku terhuyung hayang je.

macam keling mabok.

huhu.

oh, selamat hari merdeka Malaysia.

^^, aku bangga jadi rakyat Malaysia.

tapi aku tak bangga dengan rakyatnye...

aku laa tu.. tak bangga juga dgn diri sendiri.

still a long way to go...

huh? ye ke "long"? kot2 meninggal dunie esok luse?

haa... tade da long long nye...

sob2.. tibe tibe nak nanges.

napa tah na nanges. Sebak kot.

Sebak ngn diri sendiri.

Kalau lah aku sebaik isteri Rasulullah, Aisyah.. (ye itu nama aku juge)

kadang2 nama aku tak mencerminkan peribadi..

alpa. kadang2 alpa dgn nikmat dunie. hurm...

aku tanak cakap sal org lain pasal aku isaukan diri sendiri lagi..

sedih pon ye jugak.

hahaha.. apa tah aku ngarut ni..

aku just harap hati aku tenang..

tenang mcm baby baru lahir..

Oh, bestnya jadi baby...

suci brsih.. xde masalah.

tak perlu pikir masalah dunia.

Bersyukur la baby2 yg d jemput Ilahi...

Kalian mmg penghuni syurga yang bakal bantu ibu bapa kalian.

hurm... tetibe ni jugak mengingatkan aku kat kes buang bayi..

aku akui, aku tak baik.. tp jgn d bunuh bayi 2...

mungkin takdir mereka pnjang lagi..

dan, aku harap... d malam merdeka ni... xada orang buat pesta pesta... mabuk2..

merdeka hati dan jiwa.

ingat kepada asal usul kejadian.

aku tak mampu nak luahkan apa yg aku rasa sekarang...so, sekian saje bebelan aku.

dah tak mampu nk bgtau pape.

u n i

2010-08-23T01:10:00.000-07:00

Forget the times he walked by, Forget the times he made you cry,

Forget the times he spoke your name, Remember now your not the same.

Forget the times he held your hand, Forget the sweet things if you can,

Forget the times & Don't pretend, Remember now he's just your friend.

-nobody-

tajuk penting.

2010-08-19T05:54:00.000-07:00

nak kawen now boleh tak ma?

*larik jao jaoo.....*

hai.

2010-08-15T17:28:00.000-07:00

I am still alive.

I will survive.

YA ALLAH, give me strength.

May you ease this burden.

Amin...

helpless

2010-08-11T21:16:00.000-07:00

Ya Allah,

hanya kepada mu aku mengadu...

aku tau dosa aku banyak....

tapi, aku harap resah aku pada semua ini...

perucapan yg kurang enak yg terlintas di hati ku...

yang aku sendiri ta tahu aku maksudkan atau tidak...

aku tak mampu nk tampung tu semua...

aku lemah. aku tak berdaya. makin aku gagahkan, makin kerap bnda 2 main2 dalam otak...

Ya Allah,

DOSA nya aku. mcm mana harus aku menghadap-MU.

aku malu. aku harap sgt aku tak pernah belajar perkataan dan ucapan yang ta enak..

ya Allah. Ampuni lah aku..

berikan aku ketenangan...

tambahan di bulan Ramadan...

amin...

BANG BANG BOOM!

2010-08-03T01:23:00.000-07:00

Put yourself in my shoes now...

What if your mother/family criticized your loved ones?

What if they predict things which are unbearable to be listened to?

What if they start judging someone close to your loved ones?

The question is...

What is your answer then?

Suddenly I feel the pain in my ass.

-well, I dont care-

wish lists.

2010-08-01T03:01:00.001-07:00

this is an awesome dress! I want it, but I dont have money =(

*credit to http://oldblossombox.blogspot.com/*

She sells variety of vintage items that are affordable and IT!

BLUSHER. i am not into make-up thing. But Since i bought the naturactor foundation, I just feel that the blusher might compliments the foundation as well. ^,^ big spender!

DSLR. specifically D90. Wayyyyy~ too expensive. But I hope to have one on my own since i LOVE PICTURES.. heeee~

just these 3 that i wish for currently....

*adiahkan semua ni... I kawen dgn you ok?*

shawlista!

2010-07-31T01:08:00.000-07:00

Hye...

aku penggemar shawl.

aku beli tak berfikir.

teruk betul kan?

hurm.

-gile pule rasenye-

omai omai!!

2010-07-28T21:53:00.000-07:00

jumpe one foundation yg super flawless!!

nak beli!!!! =DDDD

dia yang bersalah.

2010-07-26T12:00:00.000-07:00

nama: sha MoOshux

umo: bakal berusia 22 (muke dan saiz badan mcm 18)

status: SINGLE (muahaha)

kesalahan: Berbelanja on9 secara berlebihan sehingga menyebabkan duit tiada...

Saksi: tiada. Buat Salah di depan laptop.

Hukuman: Menabung amalan mulia. Laptop perlu di bakar.

ketik ketik. aha aha.

2010-07-26T07:19:00.000-07:00

Hoi, cepat nye bulu ketiak tumbuh.

!!@#$%^&*

Cloudy day. Milo and BFF

2010-07-24T08:12:00.000-07:00

Today I went out with my BFF, Fick.

It was a last minute decision. Thought It would be great if Ereen was there as well.

We headed to Kemaman Kopitiam. The place was lil' bit dirty and the food wasn't soo good and the price is ridiculous! haha... I order a Milo-King ICE BLENDED but the ice wasn't blended as i expected, they used ice cubes instead. for me, it is just an ordinary Milo ice with a scoop of choc ice cream and waffle stick.

Funny how the price can reach nearly 7 or 8 ringgit. what the fish.

Anyway, he's a friend of mine back in primary school. We've been friends for ages! we were born in the same general hospital, share the 16 February 1989 birthday dates and maybe a labor room =p hahaha... he's like 6 hours older. Acting as a big brother, I love him the way he is. though his hair look totally ridiculous now. You better change your mind about doing the cornrows hairstyle. . . (Rambut jagung) =X

ignore this silly lady.

the driver was so dedicated to the steering =)

oh well, one question : I juling ke ni? Hahahaha.

kereta kancil. kereta juge.

2010-07-19T23:40:00.000-07:00

eyh, cinonet plak gambar. upload beria.

xpe la. currently tgh pasang impian mao kereta ni.

MYVi LIMITED EDITION 2010 COLOUR -PINK

papa sudah cakap, down payment... adik bayar la.

monthly, papa bayar. ok?

Gulp. die tau aku tade duit. muahaha...

klik gmbar untuk gmbar yg lebih besar. thanks!

-insan yg masih belom mAMpu membawa kereta-

confession.

2010-07-19T12:21:00.001-07:00

i miss you. got it?

A boy is a magical creature, you can lock him out of your workshop, but you can't lock him out of your heart. You can get him out of your study, but you can't get him out of your mind.

kotak rahsia.

2010-07-09T00:53:00.001-07:00

ku buka laci bilik ku...

ada satu kotak merah bersaiz kecil.

ku buka isinya, penuh dgn gambar. kertas bergumpal berlipat.

oh, nota-nota rupanya.

senyum.

dan senyum lagi.

dan berkata pada diri sendiri...

*walawei!!! jiwang nye ko Sha zaman dulu-dulu! blah aa*

kandungan nota itu berbunyi seperti berikut:

p/s: camera takde. xdpt tunjuk bukti.

Biru Ungu Cinta.

Biru itu warna cinta mu, ____. (nama Ex d rahsiakan muahahaha)

Warna yang terpancar indah dari penjuru matamu.

Dalam diam aku dapat rasakan Cinta yang bersinar, Cinta yang tidak pudar.

Hangat dan menyala.

Tulus dan bening.

Sedangkan ungu itu warna duka ku.

Yang membeku di dalam hatiku, yang mengalir dalam jantung ku dengan lukayang paling dalam,

berdenyut pilu....

menjalar pilu....

menjulang lesu.

hebat tak? mana buku tah aku cilok ni... ini kalau Anep baca aku dapat bg 2 options je reaksi die...kalau lah aku bagi ini kat Anep maybe die akan...

1- menangis2 terharu tgk cinta aku kat die yg menggunung bagai... ewah

2- mungkin die akan rasa aku buang tebiat. berjiwang karat sama die. uhh.. not ur style sha... kata nya...

hahaha... I will go for jawapan no. 2 pasal... dengan Anep aku siyes sempoi. berkarat pabila aku nak loving2 gitu. selebihnya aku lagi suke pukul die. muahaha... bukan kah lebih mesra syg? =p

dush dush sedas!

erk. bukan niat aku nk simpan benda2 mcm tu... tambah2 bile da ada incik anep. aku pon sbnrnya lupe aku simpan nota2 tu... ( nota2 ni include nota yg aku main pass pass lam kelas bersama kwn+ diary2 aku) . aku mula buat keje2 penulisan murahan ni start form 1 lah... eyh x.. darjah 5...maybe sebab tuh penulisan aku sekolah dulu cemerlang, ayat bunga-bunga. cikgu bangga dowh!

waktu darjah 5 aku ada crush ngn classmates aku. sampai form 1 aku suke die. agak berduka lara lah jugak sebab die bestfriend aku..and aku jd org tgh dlm relationship die ngn sorang budak darjah bape tah (comel budak tuh. rambut curl) berendam air mata je sakit ati. wakaka... skunk dat boy buat medic kat mesir kot. da tak hensem. muahahaha =p aku pon xde FB... kitorg 1 skola till form 3.. gile mamat ni sombung ngn aku. dush! tak heran lah incik jepul.

eyh, jumpe name kad shah rukh khan lak yg mamat 2 punye. muahaha... dlu zaman2 skola rendah kan ada jual sticker name kad bagai yg siap ada katalog 2... kompem syarikat 2 da bankrupt da now =p

life can be funny sometimes. I always tell myself my life sucks. but when looking at this box, reminds me of the innocent faces I met while I was trying to complete the journey of childhood life, to start over the adolescent period... to begin as a new person in this current state.

so tell me, what's ur story?

jalan2..

2010-07-08T08:58:00.000-07:00

plan mao melawat iqah d tampin.

mao ke seremban umah paklong.

mao meronggeng bersama katak weng.

mao ketemu sama pikachu & ela shafie.

mao dating dgn ___________________.

mao celebrate bday emmet.

tapi plan masih kabur. isk!

kembalinya saya ke Malaysia ^,^

2010-07-01T17:42:00.000-07:00

Hi..

I am finally home.

2 hari d London before we departed to Malaysia was super tiring. everyone was carrying at least 2 heavy bags. mine was no exceptional too... crazy bila fikir nak gerak by tube and need 2 climb stairs yg super duper tinggi. Glad some of the Londoners were very helpful, unlike our own Malays in London. tak ringan tulang langsung. tgk je orang terkontang-kanting angkat beg.

we reached London like 1 p.m and heading straight to Malaysian Hall. the food in Malaysian hall is super tempting and sambal udang petai is soo marvelous. but honestly, its quite expensive. 2 side dishes+ rice = GBP 6.00 T_T sobs. menanges rasanya. haha.. seb baik sedap. petang tuh my friend, Ereen accompany me iqah n kayla jalan2 around London. we went to London towr, bridge..wink! tapi xde gmbar. lupe plak na rembat camera b4 kua... haishh~Ereen pon balik Malaysia, the next day after mine. die naik MAS =O

oh, ckp pasal airlines... mine is Egypt Air. service was good. not so excellent but it's good for the price that i paid. 382 pound? how was that? cheap kan? hehehe... oh, we transit in Cairo. I faced with such an embarrassing moment in Cairo... I jatuh dalam toilet...lom sempat pakai sua ke apa... makcik cleaner meluru bukak pintu toilet i... ahhh siott~

"Bodoh, Bodoh!!" itu je yg mampu aku cakap. terkejut punye pasal aku nanges. tgn aku luke.. bahu aku bengkak. Ades la...

the moment I reached Malaysia, rasa super terharu. hahaha... from Cairo to KL... a girl from Sudan sat beside me... Her name is Eram. she will be in UTM Skudai for 2 weeks with others including the doctors n lecturers-study pupose. I learnt lots of thing from her. she took out Al-Quran from her bag and started reading it and asking If i could read it. oh course I would say i can read it, but really knowing the meaning unless if i refer to the translator / terjemahan... but she said, if u're reading and at the same time knowing the meaning... Your reading would be more meaningful =)

I just smiled. feeling ashamed for myself.

i met my bro in the airport together with lott, emmet n sofia. I think, Sofia saw a ghost in me since she cried whenever i tried to hold her or look at her. wakaka... siot je. nvm. ko sombung ye... my nephew Emmet was super shy with me. die nak kene umpan with mainan yg mahal2 baru die nak dekat ngn kita. cis cis. suruh bapak kau belikan transformer tuh. aunty ko ni tak berduit. *semalam beli pad, panty liner, shampoo,pencuci muka and lotion pon da cecah 50 hengget. terasa duit Malaysia mahal pula. hahahahaa*

oh, my cousins were here for few days =) yesterday I went out with kAK ida+ Apih Saini... he belanja me makan nasi Ulam taman orkid. oh, sedap... ikan besar2..ulam...sambal belacan, asam pedas patih baru 4 pound hahahahhaaaaaa... murah2... =p

thanks apih.

Oh ANYWAY, i miss u people in the UK... come back soon. Dont feel jealous cos YOU LITERALLY dont miss anything... still can cook home-made food in the UK... but yeah... Malaysia is always here, waiting for you people. jom jalan2 Kelantan. ayuh2...

to my sugar daddy a.k.a sugar plum a.k.a MOKK... hAnif Asyraf,

I've read the card. I read it in Cairo. You're so Sweet Love~ and I love you for that =)

take care and call me pls?

muah

Home :D

2010-06-27T08:29:00.000-07:00

HOME

*SILE LAYAN LAGU NI*

yes2, true... muke terbayang family+ friends.

esok pegi London. Meeting Ereen probably :)

u know what, I love UK. I love the cool weather =D

nearly one year da kat sini, and it feels like home.

So yea... even I dont have so many best friends here, but I know I can rely on certain people. Well, you know who you are.

So, wishing you guys Happy Holidays and safe Journey..

May life treats you well.

love, Sha.

aku maroh daley bahaso aku!

2010-06-23T13:39:00.000-07:00

heyy... tau dop gerey nge sek mum.

gerey do'oh sapa serow nok kekoh2 jah awop mum. tggal bare g2 jah...

aku pon reti jugok nk carow ko bare sndri.

mum nk wi yo sapa kulat gapow la..

siki 2..mum nok wi sumbak supo nge mum jugok la?

aku bukey nok ngepek ko gapo...

tapi gak narak sapa gitu mo..

manusio seko ni pon reti jah nk gno...

reti jah oyak gotu goni... tapi supo tulo jah.

aku xdop aroh doh ni.

aku bukey jnis nok tulih2 notis ko gapo.

malah mugo pok mu besa lakow...

tok hau la,

nyo keno wi nikoh laluh bekali...

maak banyok laa.. aku nok jah kecek udoh,

tapi gak mikir kito saim etek.

hom doh la..

kiro halal jah.

p/s: serow parokkk do'oh aa~ nyo nyekik molep!

bye.

being nervous.

2010-06-18T14:42:00.000-07:00

aku rasa tahap affective filter aku pada last paper hari ni... sangat2 laa tinggi.

harus la.

ko orang lain nga sesak dada.. ngafal segala...

boleh lak ko tdo dgn lena.

debush2.

boleh pulak time exam kua setengah jam awal.

bajet ko tuh pandai sgt laa... cm otai2..

siot ko sha.

isk!

aku berazam, untuk exam akan2 dtg, aku tanak daa ta tdo semata2 cos na study!

huh!

btw, untuk paper socio, aku harap aku LULUS.

DOA KAN laa...

exam!

2010-06-13T05:37:00.001-07:00

hee~ good luck everyone!

Smile!!!!

bluek.

2010-06-11T04:04:00.001-07:00

being shitted again.

.

2010-06-08T14:50:00.001-07:00

geram.

awak tau tak geram?!

SAYA GERAM!

nak marah pown ada. huh!

READY?

2010-06-07T13:19:00.000-07:00

demok.

sile jaga hati saya dengan HATI-HATI.

sile willing untuk belajar bahasa KELANTAN.

sile ready untuk makan masakan PAPA SAYA MASAK.

sile ready untuk bawak saya pegi KB MALL.

sile ready untuk dengar saya MEMBEBEL.

sile ready untuk sayang KUCING saya.

sile ready untuk terima UJANG.

sile ready untuk terima KELUARGA SAYA.

sile ready untuk jadi sebahagian dari SAYA.

And yes,

sile ready untuk kene BULI SELAMA-LAMANYA

hehehe.

mood: revision. berehat seketika.

sound effect.

2010-06-06T13:47:00.000-07:00

ho yeah...

perjalanan ke city centre coventry yg mendung tak penah buat aku patah hati untuk berjalan2...

tibe2....

"groowlllll" - aku try buat efek bunyik guruh. ah, mungkin x menjadi.

oh yes, ini pertama kali aku dgr bunyik guruh d UK...

tergelak aku dan incik bf... mao aja main-main hujan. mcm kecik2 dulu.

ah, sudahnya naik taxi balik LP.

p/s: exam in less than a week. haha. ta cuak pon. eheh. ujub pule. tak tak. cuak sebenarnye =(

doakan saya dan rakan2 aminnnnn~~~~~~~~~~~~`

mulianya Isteri. bacaan untuk semua

2010-06-04T12:02:00.000-07:00

Hargailah isteri anda.

Mulianya seorang isteri disisi Allah. Dan betapa berharganya wanita yang bergelar isteri ini pada keluarga, suami dan anak-anak. Rugi dan binasalah suami-suami yang tidak menghargai isteri mereka kerana isteri inilah yang akan membantu mereka di akhirat kelak. Biarlah buruk mana isteri anda, sayangilah mereka.

Beruntungnya seorang wanita yang ada rahim ini ialah dia bekerja dengan Tuhan. Jadi 'kilang ' manusia. Tiap-tiap bulan dia diberi cuti bergaji penuh. 7 sehingga 15 hari sebulan dia tak wajib sembahyang tetapi Allah anggap diwaktu itu sembahyang terbaik darinya. Cuti bersalin juga sehingga 60 hari. Bila dah bersalin tu, susukanlah anak. Cuti ini bukan cuti suka hati tapi cuti yang Allah beri sebab dia bekerja dengan Allah. Tapi bila dah habis cuti tu. Layanlah suami, ”offer" lah pada suami,

Nabi bersabda : berjimak dgn isteri itu pahala.

Orang lelaki tak ada cuti dari sembahyang. Sembahyang wajib baginya dari baligh sehingga habis nyawanya.

Satu lagi berita gembira untuk wanita.

Sepanjang dia mengandung Allah sentiasa mengampunkan dosanya.
Lahir saja bayi seluruh dosanya habis.
Inilah nikmat Tuhan beri kepada wanita.
Jadi kenapa perlu takut nak beranak?

Marilah kita pegang kepada tali Allah. Seandainya wanita itu mati sewaktu bersalin, itu dianggap mati syahid, Allah izinkan terus masuk Syurga. Untuk orang bukan Islam, dia tak dapat masuk Syurga tapi Allah beri kelonggaran seksa kubur. Untuk peringatan semua wanita yang bersuami seluruh kebaikan suaminya, semuanya isteri dapat pahala tetapi dosa-dosa suami dia tak tanggung.

Di akhirat nanti seorang wanita solehah akan terperanjat dengan pahala extra yang banyak dia terima di atas segala kebaikan suaminya yang tak disedari. Contohnya bila dia redha suaminya pergi berjemaah di masjid atau ke majlis ilmu, bersedekah, ganjaran Allah ke atasnya jua.

Bila dia lihat suaminya tengah terhegeh-hegeh di titian Sirat dia tak nak masuk syurga tanpa suaminya, jadi dia pun memberi pahalanya kepada suami untuk lepas masuk syurga. Di dunia lagi, kalau suami dalam kesusahan isteri boleh bantu tambah lagi di akhirat. Kalau seorang isteri asyik merungut, mulut selalu muncung terhadap suami dia tak akan dapat pahala extra ini.

Manakala suami pula mempunyai tugas-tugas berat di dalam dan di luar rumah, segala dosa-dosa anak isteri yang tak dididik dia akan tanggung ditambah lagi dengan dosa-dosa yang lain. Dinasihatkan kepada semua wanita supaya faham akan syariat Allah agar tidak derhaka denganNya.

Sesungguhnya wanita dijadikan daripada rusuk kiri lelaki. Dia bukan dicipta dari kepala ke kaki,juga bukan dari tapak kaki. Dia dicipta dari sebelah rusuk kiri lelaki supaya dia hampir kepada kamu (lelaki), lengan lelaki dicipta untuk mempertahankan wanita,dekat dengan hati lelaki untuk disayangi.

Woman was made from the rib of man,
She was not created from his head to top him,
Nor from his feet to be stepped upon,
She was made from his side to be close to him,
From beneath his arm to be protected by him,
Near his heart to be loved by him.

"Wahai Tuhan. Ku tak layak ke syurgamu. Namun tak pula aku sanggup ke nerakamu. Kamilah hamba yang mengharap belas darimu,"

"Ya Allah. Jadikanlah kami hamba-hamba mu yang bertaqwa. Ampunkan dosa-dosa kami, kedua ibubapa kami, dosa semua umat-umat Islam yang masih hidup mahupun yang telah meninggal dunia"

Kubur itu gelap, cahayanya ialah Laa Ilaaha IllalLah.

Jika diletakkan langit dan bumi di sebelah dacing, dan kalimah ini di sebelah yang satu lagi, pasti lebih berat lagi nilai kalimah 'Laa ilaaha illalLah' ini. Rasulullah SAW bersabda (mafhumnya) :

"Wahai manusia! Ucaplah 'Laa ilaaha illalLah', kamu pasti berjaya!"

Marilah kita ucapkan kalimah ini:
"Laa ilaaha illallah!"

Futnot : taken from susudalambotol.blogspot.com

sahabat.

2010-06-01T09:17:00.000-07:00

aku doakan Agama yg kamu cari itu akan lekat pada diri kamu.

aku masih mencari, tapi aku happy cos lihat perubahan dari diri kamu.

sukar untuk istiqamah.

tapi aku yakin kau boleh.

moga redha yg kau cari akan di payungi Allah SWT.

till then, take care =)

gaza.

2010-05-31T14:25:00.000-07:00

SERANGAN ISRAEL KE ATAS FLOTILA MISI BANTUAN KEMANUSIAAN LL4G KE GAZA
Perkembangan terkini flotilla Lifeline4Gaza;
1. Sebagaimana yang dimaklumi 7 buah kapal yang menyertai konvoi bantuan kemanusiaan antarabangsa ke Gaza sedang belayar menuju ke perairan Gaza melalui Laut Mediterranean. Konvoi ini diketuai oleh sebuah NGO daripada Turki iaitu Insani Yardim Vakfi (IHH). Maklumat terkini ialah kapal induk Mavi Marmara telah diserang oleh angkatan laut Israel. Akibat dari tindakan biadap ini 3 orang sukarelawan telah terkorban dan 30 lagi mengalami cedera parah.
2. Seramai 12 orang sukarelawan bersama-sama petugas media daripada Malaysia turut menyertai konvoi bantuan kemanusiaan ini. Mereka berada di atas kapal “Mavi Marmara”. Penyertaan mereka bersama konvoi ini adalah semata-mata atas dasar kemanusiaan.
3. Semua objektif dan pergerakan konvoi ini adalah berpandukan kepada Resolusi 1860 (2009) yang ditetapkan oleh Majlis Keselamatan Pertubuhan Bangsa-Bangsa Bersatu dan undang-undang maritim lain yang berkaitan. Antara lain, Resolusi 1860 menyebut antara lain
a) menyeru kepada penghantaran bantuan kemanusiaan kepada Gaza termasuk makanan, minyak dan kemudahan perubatan,
b) menggalakkan usaha-usaha membuka laluan dan mekanisma lain bagi tujuan menyampaikan bantuan kemanusiaan yang berterusan,
c) menyeru semua negara untuk menyokong usaha-usaha di peringkat antarabangsa bagi memperbaiki keadaan kemanusiaan dan ekonomi di Gaza, dan
d) mengecam semua bentuk keganasan dan serangan terhadap masyarakat awam dan semua bentuk terorisma.
Semua rakyat Malaysia yang terlibat di dalam konvoi ini berpegang teguh kepada peraturan dan undang-undang antarabangsa dan pekerti mulia sesuai dengan aspirasi negara Malaysia.
4. Konvoi ini membawa kira-kira 10,000 tan barangan bantuan. Seramai lebih 540 orang menaiki kapal Mavi Marmara, termasuk ahli parlimen, ahli akademik, petugas media, ulamak, seorang kanak-kanak berumur kurang daripada satu tahun dan juga seorang warga emas berumur lebih daripada 80 tahun. Tidak ada sebarang bentuk senjata dibawa bersama konvoi ini walaupun untuk tujuan mempertahankan diri. Fakta ini jelas menunjukkan bahawa konvoi ini adalah benar-benar sebuah konvoi bantuan kemanusiaan yang akan disampaikan oleh sukarelawan-sukarelawan dari kalangan masyarakat awam.
5. Berdasarkan kepada fakta-fakta ini jelas Israel secara biadap telah melanggar undang-undang antarabangsa. Apatah lagi serangan ini berlaku di perairan antarabangsa dan dilakukan ke atas sebuah kapal bantuan kemanusiaan yang tidak bersenjata yang bertujuan aman. Tindakan Israel menginjak-injak prinsip kemanusiaan ini wajar mendapat kutukan dari seluruh masyarakat antarabangsa yang cintakan keamanan dan keadilan.
6. Kami dengan ini menyeru supaya kerajaan Malaysia di bawah pimpinan YAB Dato’ Seri Mohd Najid Tun Abd Razak dan juga Datin Seri Paduka Rosmah Mansor sebagai Penaung kepada Tabung Bantuan Kemanusiaan Palestin mengeluarkan kenyataan rasmi mengutuk tindakan biadap dan kejam regim Zionis Israel yang telah bertindak di luar batas kemanusiaan dengan menyerang sebuah flotila kemananan yang bertujuan semata-mata untuk menghulurkan bantuan kepada rakyat Gaza yang teraniaya dan dizalimi sekian lama.
7. Kami juga menyeru PBB supaya mengadakan persidangan tergempar untuk meluluskan resolusi bagi mengambil tindakan paling tegas ke atas Israel, termasuk mengheret pemimpin mereka ke muka pengadilan.
8. Kami juga menyeru kepada seluruh rakyat Malaysia untuk menyatakan bantahan dan kutukan paling keras ke atas Israel serta bersedia untuk menyokong apa-apa tindakan yang akan disusun seterusnya bagi menangani isu ini.
9. Kami juga menyeru kepada semua pemimpin-pemimpin politik, pertubuhan-pertubuhan bukan kerajaan dan rakyat seluruhnya supaya bergabung tenaga menyatakan sokongan kepada misi penghantaran bantuan kemanusiaan ke Gaza dan mengenakan tekanan ke atas Israel yang telah menyerang flotila Gaza sehingga menyebabkan kematian dan kecederaan di kalangan sukarelawan.
10. Kami seterusnya menyeru agar semua peringkat masyarakat dapat meneruskan doa dan solat hajat di masjid, surau, jabatan kerajaan, atau mana-mana tempat lain yang sesuai bagi memohon agar Allah SWT menjayakan misi bantuan ini dan memberikan kekuatan dan kesabaran kepada para sukarelawan

http://www.lifeline4gaza.org

Allahuakhbar...!

rasa sangat kesal.

2010-05-29T17:59:00.000-07:00

saya mintak maaf hanif asyraf!!

ni semua dosa del n dan tiken =(

me mintak sowie.

tapi rasa gatal2..miang2 payang na upload lak gambar 2 kt sini.. aishh aishhh......

tanak! =p

rahsia diri. sulit.

2010-05-29T14:57:00.000-07:00

satu benda kau kene tahu pasal aku.

eyh, tak...

mungkin bukan 1.. mungkin bukan 2.. mungkin.. mungkin...

aku urut orang.
tapi aku tak reti keluar angin sendawa bagai.
aku mungkin tak mampu sendawa seperti nama nama yg harus atau WAJIB d rahsiakan...tapi, aku punya kebolehan tersendiri.
mungkin ini yg korang patot tahu. aku xmampu sendawa ketika mengurut. tapi, aku Suka kentot. berangin badan aku cmne pon.. die jarang nak Arkkkk...arkkk..... die nak PROTTT PROTTT jek...
oh, ada lagi rupanya. harapan aku agar ada manusia yang sanggup urut kasik keluar angin dr badan aku cos aku da ta mampu kembung perot slalu. aku da tak mampu nak pegi tandas ulang-alik semata-mata nak amik air smyg berkali-kali... asal nak takbir je die buat menggelodak lam perot ni...padahal, before nak semyang die elok je behave... haishhh....

kesian kan?

hey you!

2010-05-28T09:16:00.001-07:00

eyh,

rasa ta di sayangi lak arini...

awak tanak cari saya ke?

isk!

...isi hati...

2010-05-26T13:01:00.000-07:00

I watched and listened to a video posted by najah...

i realise one thing, we cannot wait for Allah to grant us with all the good things all the time (HE WILL) BUT,

as human beings, we are entitled to seek for HIS- blessing... so make do'a

Forgive me for commit mistakes and sins...

being a sinner myself, makes me feel guilty.

Please help me to find my courage ...

i'm only human...

i'm a sinner...

but Allah is the most merciful...

=(

2010-05-26T05:24:00.001-07:00

napa perlu sama?

tiap2 kali pon mcm 2...

hang anep!

2010-05-25T12:08:00.000-07:00

aku gembira ada kamu

sayang kamu.

even kamu sgt ego. cakap besar *sebesar badan*

kamu kuat makan, tapi kamu jarang susahkan saya.

kamu sayang saya se-gile-gile saya.

se-emo-emo saya.

thanks lah wak pasal ta desak2 saya na masak time2 busy ngn esaimen ne.
maceh!

carboot sale.

2010-05-23T06:21:00.000-07:00

haa... tengok 2...

itulah hasil buruan saya d carboot sale td.

Almari comel 2, atas dasar kesungguhan tawar menawar, berjaya dapat 3 pound.

jadi la. berat mmg berat. tapi saya puas.

dapat lagi tabung baru.

seronok.

harap dapat menabung lah lepas ni. =p

kebanyakkan barang dapat dengan harga 50p.

exceptional untuk barang2 mcm mahal... mmg xdapat laa 50p...

kasut 2 da kotor. kaki saya kotor waktu pakai slipa jepun. bile test lupe nak tnggal. um.

tgk da ada kesan foot print.

hand bag kecik2 tu.. saje je saya beli... 50p.

kalo datang lewat2... mmg everything must clear.

seronok.

heee..

oh.. ada beruk saya beli.

tapi lupa na amek gamba.. hahaha =p

oh.

ini hadiah dari incik BF.

maybe untuk saya.

takpon kami share je guna.

Polaroid camera.

excited gile baca buku manual bagai...

1st gambar kitorg amek sgt2 menjadi even muka aku rentung macam aci.

*panas ok Coventry*

hee... yg kaler pink 2.. cermin bulu2...

yg kuning tu... Tabung AYAM..

semua barang2 itu aku dapat dgn harge 50p.

murah kan?

kuasa membeli mmg harusnya begitu...

haaaaaa.....

sape kecik2 dulu penah main?

zaman kecik2 dulu aku pena ada... tapi sakai punye.

tahap paling murah gaban...

mahal kot kat malaysia. kecik2 dulu tgk je orang main...

dulu..aku penah pinjam dr bestfren aku...

tapi aku rosakkan dgn terjatuh lam kolam kecik.

makanya..

papa aku terpaksa baiki.

cuak aku.

nanges2 guling2 takot xdapat ganti.

ces.

anak aku nanti...

tamoo ajar main mainan elektronik.

kalo ikot prangai bapak kau, ok la.. semua brang na jage...

kalo ikot prangai aku, bek toksah la...

masuk stor aa jawab die.

eyh. tak...

penat. na tido. na tido.

cabut... jangan tak cabut.

2010-05-22T16:40:00.000-07:00

haa... nampak familiar kah?

benda ni lah buat si gadis-gadis kusyuk...

orang tegur pown buat tatau jek.

masyuk. masyuk.

hahaha... kalo nak tahu... ni laa bnda yg dak pompuan gune untuk cabut bulu ketiak.

muahaha...

unless kalo da malas sgt tu, shave aja.. tapi nnti da lebat, aku ta jamin...

keistimewaan cabut, die lambat tumbuh ye.

aku tahu...dan aku kagum ngn girls. pasal die ta rasa kesakitan cabut 2 adalah pain in the ass..

nikmat dunia babe.

dulu aku penah cuba cabut bulu ketiak seorang lelaki ni.

perrrghhhh... die punye menjerit, buat aku bantai gelak.

nak nanges pown ada.

eleh. lek lek suda.. baru cabut bulu ketiak daa emo na nanges.

hak hak...

mungkin patut cuba kt incik bf.

ada berani? mao cuba lagi?

tapi jujurnya, kadang2 berharap bulu ketiak xpayah tumbuh langsung. penat laa...

tambah2 kalo die selit2. mao na kene cungkil pakai benda2 tajam..

biasanya gune brooch.

aaahhh... jangan cakap ko ta pena buat. aku tahu ko buat.. hahaha..

normal laa 2...

skunk ada produk beauty- philip Lumea (sile google, aku malas na cr gamba.)

untuk hilangkan bulu d badan. heh.

harga??

da layak angkat laptop HP 1..

tapi kalo adaa yg nak derma... aku terima laa sgt2...

nak weh.

penat naa teleng-teleng kepala kasik licin.

muakaka.

entry aku sungguh dekat d hati.

ta paham lelaki xske cabut bulu ketiak. ta tahan saket e?

heee~

soo.. ta semestinya laki ni tough. ada je bnda x.. hehe ..towiee

haaa...

yang ni adalah jenis aku biasa pakai skunk.

bentuk mcm gunting.

nama die tweezer.

sahabat karib aku ni.

kalo ilang memang merata aku carik.

daa la... nak smyg!

nite.

tita. budak suke bebel hahaha.

2010-05-22T03:13:00.000-07:00

comel? baik cakap comel.

nanti die cubit saya.

lalala.

kesayangan saya.

titik.

let the picture tells the rest =)

sebak.

2010-05-21T07:09:00.000-07:00

penah tak ko terdetik dalam ati...

na bertaubat...

tapi ko still xdapat keluar dari lubang itam.

still xdapat lawan hawa nafsu.

still xdapat buat keputusan terbaik.

kecik2 xna mampos. itu kata2 org tua2 laa..

muahaha. aku baik.

sikit.

seharian d birmingham.

2010-05-20T13:21:00.000-07:00

hello.

blog updated!

ha...

arini lepaskan gian mao keluar berdating dan bercanda setelah semalaman memerah otak merapu raban untuk keje Portfolio culture.

tau. buruk perangai. buat lagi keje last minute.

ahad lepas...

anep meng-kensel-kan date kami ke Carboot Sale akibat kerja.

hoi cik BF, AWAK MMG BUSY jek kan?? kan?

saya carik lain mao?

gagaga...

*sebat bontot sendirik*

so, Khamis...

aku ke sana dgn kadar pembaziran yg jitu.

yakni, pengaliran wang sangat2 laju. mujur testing baju d fitting rum menampak kan baju+dress itu hodoh d badan aku..

kalo tak.. maybe puluhan Pound terbang lagi.

*duit rakyat, hah. mmg suka tol gune kan.* dush dush.

perut gile2 bunyik...

cik BF yakin je jalan na g China Town.

aleh2 sesat dalam kepanasan.

hoyeah.

UK skunk da panas. tetibe rase ta tahan lak panas nye...

shit. cakap mcm lahir sini je.

cam haram.

muke aku bercahaya bile tgk kedai "Malaysian Delight".

oh, nama je Malaysia.. tapi ayam ke apa... ta HALAL. YAKNI TAK BOLEH MAKAN.

NGAHAHA...

tapi craving LAKSA penang buat aku gagah jugak.

thanks incik Epol atas suggestion.

aku order laksa+ teh tarik.

laksa die mmg terbaik la.

gagah d bumi UK. hahaha..

maybe akan pegi lagi.

mahal..

tapi, untuk perut tersayang... aku rela.

pas makan, perut aku sumpah boyot.

cam toyol pown ada.

pe kesah.

suka ati.

aku rase perfume gucci envy me bau ta tahan jek.

jual kang!

sedeh2...

oh sok kelas. kelas. assignment lagi na anta.

umm...

out out.

muah!!

hati hati.

2010-04-06T10:54:00.000-07:00

BABI.

AKU BENCI KAU.

HARAM TOL.

EYH, MMG HARAM.

TA PASAL2 KENE SAMAK...

NAK CURIK TANAH LAA JAP AGY..

HAYOO~

*MOOD; STRATEGY NA AMBIL TANAH UK*

empty.

2010-03-07T15:01:00.000-08:00

sepi.

sepi dan sendiri aku benci.

bosan dan lelah.

dan nyah saja kau pekat.

kosong.

jiwa kosong. tandus.

aku tahu jawapan untuk semua itu.

tapi. aku tak mampu.

aku tak daya.

kerna.

aku. tetap. aku.

kau. tetap. kau.

kita berbeda.

mungkin jalan kau ke kanan.

mungkin juga jalan ku ke kiri.

mungkin perlu berhati-hati. tapi.

aku sendiri tak pasti.

hurmm..

Mnight!

2010-02-23T12:33:00.000-08:00

ouh ouh...

im so excited with upcoming Mnight. YEAH.

IT'S WARWICK Mnight PEOPLE!!

our very own version. probably u won't get the same feeeling as other Mnights..

*maybe cos i berlakon gak* wakakaka. *poyo*

so now, we are basically practise almos everyday lah...

wink2..

it's gonna be awesome.

i have GOOSEBUMP!

BUt...

LETS KICKING BUTT!!

we rock babeh!

muah!!!!!

if you're reading this.

2010-01-31T04:55:00.000-08:00

dear azwa a.k.a. juek...

thanks cos blnje me d kala i sengkek...

uhuu~ terharu..

best sgt2 outing wif u n anep =D. SUSHI tu kenyangkn kite cepat sgttt~

happy becoming birthday shayunk~..

muax!

new baby!

2010-01-07T11:30:00.000-08:00

announcing the arrival of my new niece ;)

Sofia Khairul Rizal

into the world at 6.56am,

7 January 2010

weighing 3.54kg

at Tropicana Medical Centre.

shasha stress lagy!

2010-01-03T14:42:00.000-08:00

belajar bahasa ini sgt memeningkan!! ayayayya...

sekian.

saya lagy.

hurmm..

2009-12-31T14:44:00.000-08:00

i noe lots of people ere excited for 2010 to come...

but not me...

this few days.. lots of thing went into my mind..

more negative energy than positive..

*maybe byk pikir*

lonely.. yea, im lonely here..

sitting alone in my room...

sigh sigh..

eventhough i am surrounded by my friends, deep inside i feel something's missing..

i made lots of mistakes.

i regret most of time.

i regret most of my life.

i regret and complaint to most of the things.

grumpy?

well yeah. i think i am.

but then, who am i to question this?

i need to be grateful for the times that Allah give me.

for every air that I breathe..

for every single morning when i wake up.. feeling alive.

who am i to be so ungrateful?

i lost my track most of the time.

i just need some one to guide me..

to tell me to be strong..

to give me the heart that never lies..

to encourage me rather than discourage..

to be with me..

but,

life is just full with ups and downs.

i need not say much about it.

i am wishing to be with my family, as for their determination and love are my back bones.

how i wish to say I am sorry, for not being your good daughter, sister, or aunty.

i am just me.

i will and i will try to change.

For i know, i don't have much time left.

love,

sha.

*EmosiTergangguSeketika*

winter!

2009-12-16T16:55:00.000-08:00

menanty salji....

hopefully...

ESOK~~~

daa da... g titoo sha...

moga mimpi indah.

dpt main2 salji..

salam maal hijrah . amin.

hilang. jumpa. hilang balik.

2009-11-23T15:09:00.000-08:00

hye =)

salam salam...

jujur wa cakap.. wa macam da lupe wa sebenarnya punya BLOG.

hak3... sorry. mood menulis kureng agaknya.

*bukan chekgu tol*

xoxoxo...

im just me

2009-11-08T17:50:00.000-08:00

keep regretting life..

not bersyukur enough ka?

damn...

i hate my life.
bring me to reality pls.

announcement.

2009-10-04T23:08:00.001-07:00

will upload the pictures soon!

i'm IN UK

2009-10-03T11:40:00.001-07:00

hehhheheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

:P

flu. fever.sick.sick.

2009-09-29T07:30:00.000-07:00

i miss him.

but my heart has lost the courage to speak of it...

is it for real?

i feel the sorrow in my heart.

damn,

i love u.

raya with tulpjes =)

2009-09-26T05:55:00.000-07:00

kad raya chenta saya =)

2009-09-18T06:34:00.000-07:00

salam ramadhan.

this is the second last ramadhan day i supposed. just now, i came across to something really precious in my life. hurm..guess what? MY DIARY of course.
haha. but i think i gave up writing diary end of last year. my mind doesn't seem working so well with writing. or maybe i rather keep it in heart?
bluweks. like i do;p
oke la.

but that's not the point.. dalam diary saye yg berkaler itam tu.. terselit beberapa keping kad..macam2 kad.. birthday cardsss~ and yet, i got my eyes set on this lovely card.

special from him. yes, it was from him. he gave it last year.

well, he is my love. hanif is my chenta. i couldn't imagine life without him
n yes, i love him so much =)
awak bby demok saye..tau =)

well.. ada cerita d sebalik kad ni.
untuk pengetahuan korang.. ni sebenarnya kad raya. tujuan kad ni d hantar adalah sebagai kad raya.. bukan kad anniversary =)

hanif Asyraf adalah seorang yg ta pndai na beli2 barang untuk gf die
*wekk.. kedekut**
haha.. bukan laa. actually die kekok. ta penah ada gf. skola laki lak 2..idop lam uma pon laki j *except mom die* :D
ta pndai na buat bnda remeh2 ni.. (tp owg syg awk gk)

so last year, me paksa die.. paksa die bg me Kad RAYA!
mmg kes paksa. haha. nasib la. saya nak kad raya gak last year. sangat2 mao dr awak. hehehe.
byk kali die delay. mcm2 alasan die bg. memule bengang jugak..

but then, we went to JJ.. afta keluar dr wayang.. b4 ukak puasa.. me ajak die main Game 15 MINIT.. Ahaks.. ni game yg kitorg suke main bile xde keje..serta sgt bgus untuk org2 yg blur mcm kami. game ringkas je. lam masa 15 minit, ko kene g carik brg untuk bf/gf ko..
this time we choose kad raya..

siyesly, taon lepas kad raya sgt laa limited design. ta chantek lak. but i managed to get one =D
sorok2 die tanak tunjuk dat card..
haha.. sweet~ :)

he only gave me the kad raya, before i na alek to kota bharu.. only on the bus i open up his card..
with this card there's a letter..
i cried. terharu to read his letter.
even he sengal ta bg kad raya ,instead he replaced it with anniversary card but
haha. i love you b..

it was lovely, and still lovely now and ever ;)

cute aite the design.. even ta kene dengan theme raya.. but okay la then notim..
saya syggg awak!

and this is wat he drew in the letter.. the arrow tuh actually merujuk kt die la.. he tulis in the letter " bb syg chacha manyak2... maaanyakkk macam ni *rujuk kt lukisan kanak2 riang 2*"

this year, ta sempat na berbuka or berpuasa with him..
emm..wendu. if not da mcm2 we eat at Sarini.
ouh Yami2 Kuew tiow! sedap nyeee~

oke.. lapo alek.

btw,

slamat hari raya sayang =)

slamat hari raya to ALL

minta ampun n maaf kalo ada salah dan silap.

xoxo.

my crush. p/s: jgn kau curang.

2009-09-17T05:48:00.001-07:00

emm.. serius aku wendu same balak kedue aku ni.. huk2..
nape lama ta jumpe. wendu wendu..u ta ingat i da ke?
i ta kesa la u bz ngat kt Gossip girl set tuh..tp at least call la i..
*mcm betol2 la die na kol ko..cehh*

ouh Ed westwick.. nape ko hensem sgt?
da laa slang American- British ko tuh sgt sexy.
leh aku cakap ko adalah makhluk tuhan paling sexy taa??
*wek.. berdosa aku d bulan puasa ckp g2*
tuh blom dgr ko ckp british accent.. ouh caer~
kenapa kenapa..
sanggup aku Youtube na dgr slang ko smpai abes.

even streaamyx aku buat hal.. aku snggup tnggu smpai die okay balik.

kerana ko laa aku ngadap Gossip Girl sampai naek lebam biji mata.
minggu genting FINAL exam.final okayh!!.
terhegeh-hegeh aku g bilik wazap usung pendrive cinonet semata-mata na tgk ko tau..
angau.

huh. ensem. mata menggode. sexy!

stop staring at me like that Chuck. i'm melting. bluweks. siyes pasan. mimpi je a!

bilee tgk ko ngn minah Vanessa a.k.a Jessica , panas aty aku.
nape die jugak yg kau minat?
ko da ta nk aku xpe.. aku paham maybe sebab aku ta tinggi. or cun melecur cm org lain.
tp pls ye.. bukan die. u nak Blair i ta kesa. but not her.

kadang2 citarasa ko sgt pelik. tgk aje las fashion Week las month.. u sanggup akai skirt cmni. malu aku.. tapi i wat cool je la. ko ttp ensem.. terima seada nya. huhu.

dan even ko ada agy tabiat buruk ni.. aku sudi memaafkan.
even memalukan ko suke KOREK IDONG ta bertempat!

sabo la.
da aku suke ko.
ko kan crush aku.

yg benar,
tuan punye blog.